xenophobia

Expressions of superman. To write things i havent thought will happen in his life. Bleed and cry. Disappointed and neglected. Rejoice and celebrate. let me put it all in words though i think im not really good at it. WELCOME!

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Just a request..

i just gave my old friend a favor..
to post some of music video he made for his one....







ok na ba yan? sa susunod na lang yung iba...

miss ko na supervan...
hay.........

Friday, June 09, 2006

Vanna Marie, Im sorry


This is the way i do it.. ROCK the whole world!





There are times i still think about her. But i have to let go. I learn it in the hardest way a man could possibly be. After a month of concentrating in a job that i had and the time with my family ive spent, slowly but painfully im recovering from her. I have these pics taken to show the world that im getting well and a bit better after all the catastrophe ive encountered.

I know that there's always one out there who never leave me and let me down.
My friend, my constant companion, my savior - GOD.

After which, this is me...




Im playing old sad songs just to bear it all.







Summer time and i have to enjoy it. Atleast...





These are the clients in thefirm during my
summer job
in Palawan.












My sisters.... Who helped me to get through to it. I love them more now.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Whats with 8?





Vanna requested this and its only now that i found out i havent publish this the last time we were online. Im sorry :c
But here it is.....

8 places i wanted vanna to take
  1. seattle's best
  2. rooftop
  3. farm
  4. forest
  5. beach
  6. baywalk
  7. chill's
  8. Tan's residence
important person in my life
  1. Mom
  2. Dad
  3. Faith
  4. Hope
  5. Sweet
  6. Brad
  7. Friends
  8. Vanna Marie
things that remind me of Vanna
  1. with a smile (song)
  2. CALCULATOR (she knows why)
  3. basket ball
  4. computer
  5. my ericson cp
  6. superman (cos shes my supervan)
  7. tricycle (kahit pedicab daw pwede siya)
  8. Trigo *smile*
words she often uses
  1. nyeh
  2. nyahaha
  3. yabang
  4. haha
  5. antok pa ako (sleepyhead baby)
  6. hehe
  7. sus
  8. kapal
8 names i call her
  1. My vanna (she doesnt like it and i remember she texted me "...dont call me my vanna cos im not yours mark)
  2. Supervan (powerful)
  3. Van (i dont think i call her vanna)
  4. Fair one
  5. Sleepyhead (she sleeps alot or everytime i text and call her)
  6. Pikon (since that night we played a game which we made the rules of it. "asar-talo")
  7. Vanna Marie (ayaw niya)
  8. Mahal ko (bago yan)
8 names i want for my kids
  1. Mark Vincent
  2. Vanica Marie
  3. Marcus Veznan
  4. Vanna Marisse
  5. Van Marion
  6. Mary Margaret (i dont know but i like this one)
  7. Ricardo Manuel (from my dad and her dad's names)
  8. Anna Leah (from my mom and her mom's names)
my 8 hobbies
  1. blogging
  2. photography (my passion is in it)
  3. writing
  4. texting Vanna (before)
  5. car racing (i love speeding its velocity)
  6. star gazing (at the rooftop)
  7. mamundok (with the up save me)
  8. planning things in my life
my 8 jobs
  1. an acting acountant in a firm (currently employed)
  2. responsible student
  3. driver (during school days)
  4. tutor (during school days also)
  5. good son (tested and proven)
  6. blogger
  7. responsible citizen
  8. loving supervan
our 8 sports
  1. basketball (van)
  2. table tennis(van)
  3. badminton(van)
  4. billiards(mine)
  5. baseball(mine)
  6. darts(mine)
  7. soccer(mine)
  8. sungka (hehe, mine)
8 dates
    1. Dec. 10, 2005
    2. Jan 23, 2006
    3. Jan 27, 2006
    4. Jan 30, 2006
    5. Feb 13, 2006
    6. Feb 14, 2006
    7. Feb 15,2006
    8. April 2, 2006

8 movies we'll watch
  1. A walk to remember (my sisters and i watch this movie to the nth times)
  2. 50 first dates (adam s. and drew b.)
  3. titanic (all time fave)
  4. romeo and juliet (claire d. and leonardo c. it was romantic movies from shakespeare)
  5. Superman ( yung bago)
  6. armageddon
  7. beauty and the beast (fairytales naman)
  8. spiderman (fave ni van)
im jealous with these 8 persons/things
  1. aga muhlach (her seatmate in a bus that offered her)
  2. MEW (sorry i still feel that way but not tooo much)
  3. guy from ust (the one that i saw with van)
  4. freestyle ( she prefers to play that online game than chat with me)
  5. ANTOK ( it always take van away from me)
  6. guy from ust(again)
  7. guy from ust(and again)
  8. guy from ust(and again and again)

8 things i wanna do
  1. i wanna bake lasagna for vanna
  2. drive her home (spc)
  3. dance with her under the moonlight
  4. bring her in my place
  5. hold her hand
  6. hug her
  7. kiss her
  8. i wanna...make love with her
8 fears i have
  1. losing my family
  2. seperation of my parents
  3. losing vanna
  4. to get dump/rejected
  5. losing friends
  6. get failing grades
  7. embarassment
  8. God
8 important things
  1. computer (the only way i have vanna right now)
  2. car ( i love cars)
  3. hanky (im a sweaty person and i need it)
  4. cp (before but not that much now)
  5. pen and paper ( my outlet of emotions)
  6. digicam (capture beauty, moments and events)
  7. ipod (hehe)
  8. my wallet (where my money is kept)



Letter for my future wife

Billions of people living in this world and out of those billion people, its you who landed into my heart. Thousand of faces ive seen, thousand of women ive met. There's only one face and women ive came to love, hold and be with...its you my dear wife.

Couples are breaking up, filing annulment and divorce nowadays. Ours is different from them who made their lives miserable. We will struggle hard to overcome every hurdles in our ways. Problems and trials may test our faith, trust and love for one another but we will stand hand in handsaving you and me and our family.

I will grab this opportunity to say Im sorry if sometimes i go home late with unpredictable moods that will trigger you say "sa lahat ng ayaw ko yung ginagago ako"
Im sorry mahal ko.

We will be having more quarrels and petty fights in the near future, i will stay calm and listen to everything you wanted to say. We will work things out. The marriage vow we made and uttered infront of God will always remain in our hearts and mind everyday of our lives. Our marriage life is successful i dare say, for God is the center of our family. Both of us will find time to introduce Him to our 8 children so that they will grow close to Him.


Thank you for coming to my life and helped me build this wonderful family we have.
it's almost 24 years since we tied knots. that would mean more than thousand days had already passed since that happened..we've been helping each other since then.. we complement each other in various fields.. we had each other in times of downfalls and mostly in numerous triumphs..
and now, we're away from each other for we chose to take different careers.. we specialize in different fields so i know that our choice is the best for us..for our family.
we dont see each other that much... we count days before our eyes would meet again but it's okay for i know that our love won't fade.

The best thingabout us is when the night has come before we sleep late at night, we never forget to say how much we love each other. And when youre fast asleep in my chest, worries and tiredness suddenly vanish. Then i cant help myself thinking about growing old...

Our hair may turn to gray, vision may become blurred, wrinkles may appear, beauty may fade... but despite of that, i will stay in love with you my dear wife. And i want you to stay like this in my arms, not for the rest of my life but for the remaining days of our lives.

I love you van.


please watch this, this one's for van. listen to the lyrics and you'll find why i love this song and the video itself. he bought coffee for his girl.



The 8 letters

I L O V E Y O U



V A N N A T A N









Thursday, March 23, 2006

Vanna is proud of me when i use tagalog language.

bat nga ba ako nandito ngayon? iniisip ko pa rin siya..
ang babaeng laman ng aking isip at panaginip. haay...
pinipilit ko na nga na kalimutan siya pero ewan ko ba
kung bat pasulpot-sulpot lagi siya sa aking diwa...

i have these sleepless nights thinking of her. i cried 3 consecutive nights
bcos of her... she changed her number and i am the reason. she doesnt
want to hear anything about me anymore. even a mere conversation.
cant blame her but i wish she still read this blog of mine though it pierces
me.I love her but she loves that guy.i dont want to be a wrecker so i wish
her happiness and good luck. Damn. Why cant these warm liquid keep on
descending from the corner of my eyes. Im just expressing this agony i have.
oh damn. all i want at this very moment is to run into her, hug her tight and
never let her go,sulk in her shoulder.(tears keep on falling and i ccant help it)
oh van what have you done? what have i done? why i am crying now? why
do i have to love you when you love someone out there? why cant i hate you
or simply despise you? i havent blog for how many days but my thoughts are
with you. im always thinking of you and im now exaggerating things here.
i dont really know what to do now. im not ready for a commitment and im afraid
i cant love anymore like i do now. Oh God. Help me to overcome this catastrophe
i am now.

sorry kung hindi ko maparamdam sayo yung pag-ibig na yun, kung
hindi mo nararamdaman na special ka sa akin. Hindi ko po kasi alam kung
paano.
dumating ka sa buhay ko sa di inaasahang pagkakataon. sinamahan mo ako
sa pinakakritikal na bahagi ng buhay ko. sa pag-aalala, sa mga salitang sinabi
mo na nagbigay ng lakas sa akin, sa pagpapahalaga, sa pagkalinga...
LUBOS ang aking pasasalamat. Hindi ko po inaasahan sayo ang ganun.
Napakapalad niya sayo. Hindi ko man nakuha ang attensyon at maibalik ang
dati sa atin masaya na ako.Kung sa kanya ka masaya sino ako para sirain
ang iyong kaligayahan. hayaan mo na lang sana ako na patuloy kang mahalin.
hindi kita gagambalain o guguluhin, pangako. hindi ko alam kung hanggang
kelan tong nararamdaman ko para sayo. lilipas din siguro to. *smile*
mamimiss ko ang pagtambol ng puso ko pag nagtext ka, ang paghaharumentado
nito pag kausap ka. iyakin pala ako, ngayon ko lang nalaman. *smile uli*
alam mo ba kung ano ang background music ko ngayon?
"bakit nga ba mahal kita kahit di pinapansin ang damdamin ko
di mo man ako mahal ito pa rin ako nagmamahal ng tapat sayo
bakit nga ba mahal kita kahit na may mahal ka ng iba
bakit baliw na baliw ako
hanggang kailan ako magtitiisa
oh bakit nga ba mahal kita"

o kita muna pati music dito nakikisimpatya na rin..
pero eto yung gusto ko ngayong kanta yung kay craig david "unbelievable"
gusto ko kasi gawin sayo yun isa pa gusto mo ng kape diba? nakita ko yung
video nun, naalala kita. lagi naman kitang naaalala.*smile*
ako kaya naaalala mo? asa pa! haha! ano pa ba sasabihin ko...
wala na yata muna ngayon... dami ko na na-post kaya tama na muna...
sila namiss ako pero ikaw hindi. sa bagay, mas maganda nga siguro na hindi
muna tayo nagkikita para ako lang ung nasasaktan at hindi ka na...
pero ano ang nangyayari ngayon? nasasaktan pa rin ako... umiiyak.
haayy.... tama na nga to baka kung ano pa mailagay ko dito...
isa lang naman ang dahilan ng kahabaan ng aking sinulat at sinabi ...
isa lang nman yun ... alam mo ba van kung ano yun? alam niyo ba kung ano
yun? hayy.... hindi niyo pa alam ang nag-iisang dahilan?
hindi mo ba talaga alam van? hindi mo ba ramdam? kung hindi pa, ito lang yun....

mahal kita

Love... Love... Love... *sigh*

We were discussing about the Jedi rules today, cause we are such total geeks, I was on the Darkside and my friend was on the Jedi side so naturally I would argue that the Jedi code sucks!He argued about the changing of the Jedi code with Luke's time when there is love, where they permitted marriage in the order, and so I thaught of all the things that love screws up, and in my mind is true! I mean do you think love strengthens relationships? Nope! it even destroys one! See if you and your friend hooked up you'll say that you have a new and stronger connection since you are "IN LOVE" but what happens when it dies down, then you are a friend shorterSure you say, but thats just one, whatever happened to tose who stay in love? My question is that did you ever consider the guy the girl has to leave to get that new catch of hers? Did you thought about the crying girl that the guy left just to get someone more curvacious! Of course you didn't! you were blinded by the shadow called love!I bet you heard that Love is Overrated! I think it is too, many have been fooled by loves perfect moments and its perfect life, but is there so? No one ever said that love is ever so easy, so I guess love is overrated, there is no peace in love, but constant struggle, therefore you can't attain peace with love, like I said to my friend peace is the absence of emotion.. think about it.So to sum it all up, Love is not a thing of comfort, it is used to mold us to be tougher and stronger. Without it we will be frail human beings, so for those who are inlove... Buff up, WE're gonna need it!

This is what i believe

I believe in a greater power that dictates the outcome of my life.
I believe that this power emanates to the small things, things that are usually taken for granted, because as we go about our daily existence, they become mundane and perfunctory;
I believe in the power of words, how they can evince raw emotions out of a string of symbols; emotions that define the moment you are in;
I believe that with the ability to wield words, you have the power to make a nation break down into tears or to rise up in armed revolt;
I believe that books are the time machines that man had been searching for in vain; that opening the cover, leafing thru page to page is a journey unto itself.
I believe in Karma, that with which the universe resonates with; that which echoes in the halls of our psyche.
I believe in the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. I believe in mad poetics and the little drops of vagrant moods.
And most of all, I believe in the penultimate need of the soul to reach out and assimilate other souls.
I believe that there was a time when all souls came from a single core and that by stroke of hand of the greater power it was divided and strewn to the wind, fated to seek each other once again.
I believe that with words, you could weave a veil of imagery, enough to make someone fall in love and enough to crush someones heart;

Im sorry i hevent written here for quite a long tome. I was confused, broken and used. I was in the hospital these past few days. By the way, THANKS to all my brod and sis in KAPPA for dropping by. dont worrythings will be alright. And to all my friends who were there in the crucial point of my life giving me strength and courage and comfort...

---> THANK YOU, guys!

Where was i?

ah.. here! I feel like i dont want to keep in writing abour vanna in this blig ar in anywhere. you see people, the more i write abour her the more i fall for her which is, looking at all circumstances- definitely not good. Im having pribs bcos im thinking of her. Im having a hard time listening
in class bcos she takes over all my consciousness. and its silly bcos, in the simplest form of all terms... IM A MESS!

I am bleeding

I bled a thousand times before

And now I bleed once more.

I thought that I can take it

I thought there’s nothing to it.

Look at me I am a mess

Falling, stumbling infront of myself

Slowly consuming myself.

Vanna Marie.

How could you do this to me?

What have you done to me?

I pity myself, asking for mercy

My heart is on the firing line.

I’ve abandoned love long ago.

I’ve scorned it, buried it—

Laughed at it, rejected it

And now I stand here, wounded,

Ailing

Trying to look at the one person

With all the things I

Could never have.



This love dosnt inspire me anymore. My sis, Indira, told me to see her. And just last week i finally decided in the greatest decision, go to UST and tell my vanna everything i wanted her to know. W/ the pile of upcoming quizzes and the final exams, i was in dapitan w/ vic, xerxes(ust stud) and andrew.

as we were embarking our way to where vanna is, i fell in a deep thought. assorted feelings stir up inside of me. fear of whet shell think, do and say if i walk straoght in front of her out of nowhere and tell her how much i love her. Will she even take me seriously? Or maybe i might speak nonsense and stumble at my own words and i would look stupid in her eyes.

Suddenly we stopped. I dont know where past of ust we are. Then they left and shouted

"look for her alone, mack! just text us kung ano na!"

I just nodded and they disappeared. "text". That word echoed and its onl;y know that i absorbed what he said. Dammit. I( have no cp here.

What will i do now?

I was about to take upstair when i accidentally bumped in a lady teacher. Her things was scattered in the hallway. I helped her of course.

"Im sorry maam" i apologized.

And i asked shyly " maam, im looking for someone. her name is vanna marie tan, freshman bs psychology. can you please direct me to where are the psychology students are?"

then she gave me direction and i learned that shes a psychology teacher. a certain "maam balse" if my memory serves me right.


I was about to take a leap when, at the corner of my eyes, i saw her from afar. -the girl im thinking of everyday and night-. she was alone. PERFECT! I thought itwas going to ne my day. but wait who's that guy approached her?

I cansee in his body language that he was so eager to talk to vanna. then they talked and talked
and talked. she was smiling and launging and she seemed to be happy. A tapped on my shoulder got my attention.

"baka naman syota nya yan mack." xerxes teased me but arrgghhh... i got jealous.

And i was petrified of the thought.

'' mack hintayn ka na lang namin sa labas...." thats the only part i heard from vic cos my attention was all so busy to vanna and the guy. Th guy.

while watching both of them, here i am pretending waiting for someone when in reality i was sinking in the mire of bot bruises and bliss. And i was struck, and sat there laughing at how insignificantly i think of myself. I orayed that the guy would go away. Go! go!
Tough luck! He didnt. So i wathced her, every stroke she made, facial reactions and smiles she gave. Lucky guy.

Why she didnt tell me? And with that, i stood up calming myself to gather all my strength to speak to her.then i remember, she texted me "fake. not sincere." What if she'll answer me that again? i cant bear to hear those words. And now i lost confidence. Just withdraw man!

I took big steps to get away from this place with a hundred tons in my heart only to stopped in the middle of the street.

before i could completely leave, i turned my back to look at her. The wond blowing her hair, her walk, the way her hands moved...it was all so, beautiful. And as i stared at her, i closed my eyes and I took a deep breath. God. Oh, God. Don’t let her have my heart. Don’t let her have my love.
My vision became blurred. A drop of tear fell on my cheek. And I summoned all my courage to look at her. again, I looked at this girl I will never have. I looked at a dream I will never have. A prayer, that God will never hear.

And to face her, to watch her walking away from me… going with another is one of the most bitter parts of this love for her. I walked away… not knowing where I was going—but sure that I am walking away from him. Yup, I need to walk away from her. Protect her from something she does not deserve, but is slowly following into her hands… My heart. My love. All of myself.

I took a deep breath once more. Slowly sensing my knees are getting too weak to walk any longer.

I looked at myself and tried to find my heart. It was no longer there.

She had already stole it away from me all along.



I love you Vanna Marie Tan and im missing you so much!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

What happend to me these past few weeks?

My new TOYS



if you don't have iPod Video, grab it NOW! cool gadget for busy yuppies like me! hehehe. you think you don't have spare time to watch dvds? i say you're flat wrong. you can watch movies and soap operas even you're in a motion or on the road.

inside my iPod, i have a compendium of videos, namely:
1. batman and robin- disc 1 to 4
2. the incredibles
3. brokeback mountain




or songs, i have collection from billboard top 100 (from 1984 to 20067), and some piano aspi
did i forget to mention the photos? yeah, i have tons of it in my iPod Video

since i threw my cp on the wall... here's my new one..

nokia N90

the first time i held this device at nokia shop (in glorietta), i can't loose it in my grip no matter how sky-rocketing is the pricetag, amounting to 35K. it is mordantly expensive than in greenhills which is just 28K but i won't take the risk of taking side on cheaper price over warranty cost. the saleslady was right - it is more expensive to replace parts. by the way, the box has sticker which says 'this mobile phone comes with a 12-month limited warranty from nokia care'.


well, there are more good things to say on this phone but i will share the compendium of mediocre of this techy gadget. first, it does not have *vibra* mode. i am the person who hates ADD (attention deficit disorder). meaning, when a new message comes in, the next thing you will hear is the annoying tone. people around you will start mocking as if it's your first time to invest a mobile phone.



second, for the first three days, phone charging is done almost everyday. the saleslady advised to charge for 2-4 hours when the battery gets empty and take note the power is turn off also. *fic!* this is to take effect and to result to maximum standby time of the phone.

before i call it a day, it is already past, i am all smiles to have this phone and hearing the nokia message tone again is dulcet to my ears. seeing my old wrecked sony ericcson k500i these days is an EYESORE..
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I feel sad that McDonald’s cor. Aurora and
Araneta ave. will be closing down later this week.
I’ve spent more than 5 years studying in this
place and I will surely miss it. It may not be the
best outlet but I have come to love the place like
home. I even wrote my name under my favorite
table if only to claim it. The bald store manager is
kind and the salespeople are pretty nice. They
know that I drink coke lite and that both my
drinks and fries are always upgraded, even
without me telling them. We exchange smiles
when we meet each other even outside the outlet.
I’ve watched people rise from being servers to
cashiers to supervisors. One time I even got
Christmas gifts for the guards because they’d let
me leave my things to go eat outside when I’m
sick of burgers and fastfood.

I’ve finished highschool and gotten my driver's license,
but I still go back. Some part time crew members
have graduated from school and found
themselves other jobs, but they always come
back to visit. But soon, like every establishment
in that building, KFC on the far side, Mr. Quick
Fix (another version of Mr.Quickie), the famous
sisig place, Backdo (behind Mcdo), there will be
no McDonalds to come back to.

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isn't it ironic when things seems to be ok, but
then, something would come along the way in
contrast to what's right...?

isn't it ironic when happiness' being felt is
enough , but then, greater one would come, but in
a very wrong time...?

isn't it ironic when people around you were just
so right, but then, better ones would come along,
again, in a very wrong time...?

isn't it ironic when you're just about to enjoy life's
great blessings, but something unexpected would
come , that tests your true happiness and self....?

haaaayyy....life's too short.... it's just so funny,
when all the happiness in life, has something sad
in return and in reality. that one morning, you feel
so lucky, and at the end of the day....you feel so
stupid.

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nice of you to drop by my blogspots. i'm really
flattered of you spending time to read my entries.

well, sorry to disappoint you.
i'm just a busy student
in the flagship campus of the PREMIER state
university in the country, popularly known as the
University of the Philippines.

the life in peyupz in not a walk in a park -(well we
literally walk everyday, because of the high rates
of ikot and toki jeepneys). it's really stressful, as
they say every u.p. day is a hiking day.

that's not all, 24 hours is not enough to finish all
the work for that day. you have to sacrifice your
time for resting and sleeping for the time you allot
for academic purposes. especially me, i have a
lot of work. i have my plates for my major
subjects, and that a mountain of work. all you do
all day and night is compute, record, analyze, balance
and many more. and there are these
general education (g.e.) courses with their
different types of papers -reaction papers,
reflection papers, research papers, analysis,
readings, etc.

and when you're in your dormitory(well, im not),
hoping thatyou will be able to rest and sleep or star doing
your assignments to finish it early, comes the
sign on the bulleting board that says comittee
meeting, corridor assembly, general assembly,
seminars etc.

but suddenly your org mate will approach you,
saying about a meeting or something, somewhere
in the premises of this wide university.

and how about your social life life. you don't want
to mark as antisocial or a member of the ever
popular antisocio-cultural comittee. you have to
make "tambay" with your friends and have a little
chat until curfew. or during weekends, have a
stroll inside the university or at the mall or
somewhere else.

whew! it's really energy consuming and really
hectic. but it's just a matter of proper time and
resource management.

it's hard to enter this wide, chaotic world of u.p.
but it is pretty much difficult to get out of it with
your diploma on hand and being cum laude.

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(para sa mga sawa ng magbasa ng english ko)

matagal na ko hindi nakakagawa ng blog dito,
andami ata ginagawa (o feeling ko lng). grabe
na... basta... ... at masaya
ako kaya natuluyan na rin ako gumawa ng blog
entry.

so eto na... itago ang lahat ng notes... mata,
utak, at puso lamang ang paganahin... (pati pala
kamay, sa pag-i-iskrol)

1.) na-overwhelm ako kasi...
a. nabasa ko ang blog ni karl
b. at last nagiging masaya na ko sa dorm
c. nakakita ako ng mga kaibigan na hindi ko
kakayaning mawala
d. lahat ng nabanggit

2.) naiinis ako kasi...
a. lumaki yata ang insecurities ko sa
katawan
b. merong nagbabalak na umagaw sa one
liner ko na "ang gwapo ko talaga noh?"
c. hindi ako naka-attend ng isang prayer
meeting this week, at na-late pa ko sa isa.
d. lahat ng nabanggit

3.) masaya ako at kaibigan ko si...
a. karl
b. harold
c. c God
d. lahat ng nabanggit

4.) sobrang saya talaga ng week na 'to kasi...
a. nakitulog ako sa B107 = isang malaking
bonding activity
b. may mga bagay ako na napag-isip-isip at
nai-share
c. bumalik na ang isang kaibigan sa arms ni
Lord (matagal-tagal ko na din ipinag-pray yan)
d. grabe ang LIFE meeting kagabi!
e. lahat ng nabanggit (sorry po, may
letter "e")

5.) rason kung bakit masaya sa first floor...
a. nakahanap ka ng mga kaibigang
nakakapagdulot sa'yo ng pakiramdam
na "kailangan ka at kailangan mo sila" (hal. isang
karl, isang harold)
b. nagde-desire na ang marami sa amin na
MAS makilala si Lord (go tonigz! go aidz! go
reggie! at marami pang iba!)
c. may binibigay nang "comment" kaming
mag-roomate (going strong?)
d. lahat ng nabnggit

6.) gusto kong i-share sa inyo na...
a. "dont be afraid! speak out! dont be
silent!" (from the book of acts--- favorite ko yan!
b. "i can do everything through Christ who
strengthens me..."
c. you are not a mistake...
d. all of the above

7.) gusto kong ipagmalaki na...
a. bumili ako ng "the Chronicles of Narnia"
(ok lang kahit mahal!)
b. meron akong dalawang Mcdo happy meal
na Aslan at Edmund (yippeee! behlat!)
c. meron akong poster ng Narnia at mga
notebook din!(ang saya talaga grabe!)
d. nagpagawa ako ng pin ng Narnia -
edmund- (tingnan nyo sa bag ko...)
e. meron din ako tumbler na Narnia...
f. marami na ko pictures na Narnia!
g. lahat ng nabanggit (senxa, umabot ng "f"

8.) mga pinangarap/pangarap kong maging
trabaho (gusto ko lang naman i-try...)
a. truck driver
b. konduktor sa jeep
c. macho dancer (dati lang yan, nung high
school, ngayon, hindi na..)
d. dubber ng cartoons o telenovelas
(hehehe)
e. host sa home tv shopping
f. gasoline boy
g. disc jockey
h. broadcaster (gusto kong maging
pinaghalong raffy tima, jay taruc, at howie
severino)
i. teacher sa paaralan ko nung high school
(gaganti? dwoyk!)
j. prof sa UP
k. kubrador ng jueteng
l. tubero
m. alalay ni Conrado de Quiros
n. member ng bomb squad
o. clown sa mga birthday party
p. commercial model (kahit ng imodium
lang... o kaya stresstabs para gwapo ang ending)
q. theater actor
r. member ng mga sumasayaw sa
enchanted kingdom o kung medyo pwede pa...
Disneyland!
s. lahat ng nabanggit (pasensya na ha,
medyo marami... pero totoo yan, yung iba jan,
dati ko pa gusto, ngayon hindi na... pero yung
iba... gusto ko talaga i-try... hehehe)
t. gusto ko rin pala magkaron gasoline
station... heheheh (kung kumikita pa ang mga
ganun pagtanda ko.

9.) salamat sa yo kasi...
a. nagkaron ako ng kaibigang may tamang
flavor ng kasentihan (at gusto ko yan!)
b. ....................
c. ginawa mo kong speechless sa letter 'b'
d. dahil tinigilan mo na ang pag-iisip na wala
kang silbi... kasi meron... sana napaparamdam
namin sa'yo yun...
e. lahat ng nabanggit... (pati na rin ang pag-
touch mo sa shore...)

10.) si andrew ay....
a. gwapo
b. cute
c. mabait
d. ___________________ (ikaw na lang
magsabi -- minimum of two sentence... essay part
yan!)
e. lahat ng nabanggit (leakage: ito ang
tamang sagot!)

... ok, pass your papers (aka 'comments') ang
late na papel... wala lng... cge, God Bless!




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Friday, March 03, 2006

What a day!

I month old na ang blog ko!

Here's a story which was happend day.

Twas 10am in the sunny morning waiting for someone in Sunken Garden. I sat down for awile checking myself norms.

I fluffy hug from my back startle me with curiousity. Automastically, my eyes shut savoring the sweet scent of the air coming from that girl hugging me. A simple gesture that makes my heart grow bigger than usual. I love that smell which entering to my senses and with that i know who's this one. Then i pulled her arm that made her fell on my lap. Eagerly, i pinched her nose. Were both laughing at our position. This is once in the blue moon moment with her. She seldom do that except when shes up to something.>my instinct says so.<

Sometimes i wish she had no friends whom she spends constantly. >am i being too selfish?<>grin< I got jealous of those punk guys, boy-next-door and big boys amoeba chasing her, sending her sweet-nothings and flowers and love letters and text messages.

I love her so much!
This is the first girl i like, i quarrel, the first girl i made cry, and the first girl i love.
And the first girl i slept with.

Charmaine Faith.

As we sat down, i put my right arm around her shoulder.
Minute passed, we're still still. Both staring at the people in front of us.

"Why is that sad look in your eyes, why are you crying..." she started singing that MYMP's song as she turned to me.

I just looked back and smiled at her. The wind is playing her hair with rhythm.

"whats ur problemo, caballero?" she asked.

I shrugged my shoulder.

"Is it about that girl in your blog?" she asked again like a private investigator.

My eyes set its sight in the blue sky. No reply.

"Im right. Are you really in love with her?"

I pulled her closer to me instead. Still no reply.

"Im right again. Ayaw mo ba i-share sa akin, kuya?" ahe uttered with a bit bitterness in her voice.

My hand brushed her shoulder-length hair and said...

"Its not that. Huwag na muna ngayon, bebs. Not now."

Then she smiled at me. I stood up and i pinched her nose again.

I gave her my hands to help her get up.

"Tara, kain tayo ng barbecue sa beachhouse."

I offered her a free lunch.

And this day i s an ultra fine day.

With my sister dear. >smile<

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Where was I? oh, right...
Vanna Marie's role in my life actually started when I was in Katipunan, just hanging around and keeping myself cool @ the National Bookstore. After Chem Camp class, I usually go to Jollibee to eat, then at NBS (nat'l bookstore) to read for a while. ironically, this was the time when my momvand i were kind of getting in a rough moment .

Anyway, when i saw Vanna Marie for the first time, I was so smitten by her beauty that while i was holding the magazine, i was actually blushing...as if she was really there. i swear, i looked like i took seven shots of lidocaine in one sitting...

from that moment on, i swore to myself that i would search everywhere, anywhere for Vanna Marie Tan, the Yuna of my heart. (i know it sounds kinda sappy, but please bear with me). and being the torpe that i am...well...i took the Net and my cp as my weapon for success. Friendster was actually a big help...but when this fiasco over concert invitations happened (it's a long story that i prefer to tell in person), well...my hunt took a hiatus. actually, it was the fault (slight only) of my my cousin, who suggested to me that i should go to UST.

For those of you who TOOK ME FOR A STALKER!
I'm not a stalker! (well...in technical terms, i am sort of a stalker, but it sounds so ugly...i prefer to call myself a "secret admirer".) really, i just want to see her, and meet her...and be her friend, then be her boyfriend, then her fiancee, then her husband!!and when that happens, i'm gonna work hard for our family and we're gonna be happy until we get old and have grandkids!!!!! (whew!!)

WHOA...BREAK...BREAK...BREAK...

I need a shot of anti-stimulant...there...that's better...=P
when that time comes, i'm gonna be in Maslow's peak of his pyramid - i'm gonna have self-actualization.
and how i wish it would happen. that's why my quest has begun...AGAIN!
(laughs,smile)
(stops)

for those people who think of me as a stalker, let me repeat...
I AM NOT A STALKER! i'm a secret admirer, okay???!!!

I LOVE VANNA MARIE!!!!